I don't remember much from the place I was born. It was cramped and
dark, and we were never played with by the humans. I remember Mom and her
soft fur, but she was often sick, and very thin. She had hardly any milk for me
and my brothers and sisters. I remember many of them dying, and I
missed
them so.
I do remember the day I was taken from Mom. I was so sad and scared,
my
milk teeth had only just come in, and I really should have been with Mom
still, but she was so sick, and the Humans kept saying that they wanted
money and were sick of the "mess" that me and my sister made. So we
were
crated up and taken to a strange place. Just the two of us. We huddled
together and were scared, still no human hands came to pet or love us.
So many sights and sounds, and smells! We are in a store where there are
many different animals! Some that squawk! some that meow! Some that
Peep! My
sister and I are jammed into a small cage, I hear other puppies here. I
see
humans look at me, I like the 'little humans', the kids. they look so sweet,
and fun, like they would play with me!
All day we stay in the small cage, sometimes mean people will hit the glass
and frighten us, every once in a while we are taken out to be held or
shown
to humans. Some are gentle, some hurt us, we always hear "Aw they are
So
cute! I want one!" but we never get to go with any.
My sister died last night, when the store was dark. I lay my head on her
soft fur and felt the life leave her small thin body. I had heard them say
she was sick, and that I should be sold at a "discount price" so that I
would quickly leave the store. I think my soft whine was the only one that
mourned for her as her body was taken out of the cage in the morning and
dumped.
Today, a family came and bought me! Oh happy day! They are a nice
family,
they really, really wanted me! They had bought a dish and food and the
little girl held me so tenderly in her arms. I love her so much! The mom
and
dad say what a sweet and good puppy I am! I am named Angel. I love to
lick
my new humans!
The family takes such good care of me, they are loving and tender and
sweet. They gently teach me right and wrong, give me good food, and lots
of
love! I want only to please these wonderful people! I love the little girl
and I enjoy running and playing with her.
Today I went to the veterinarian. it was a strange place and I was
frightened. I got some shots, but my best friend the little girl held me
softly and said it would be OK. So I relaxed. The Vet must have said sad
words to my beloved family, because they looked awfully sad. I heard
Severe
hip dysplacia, and something about my heart... I heard the vet say
something
about, back yard breeders and my parents not being tested. I know not
what
any of that means, just that it hurts me to see my family so sad. But they
still love me, and I still love them very much!
I am 6 months old now. Where most other puppies are robust and rowdy,
it
hurts me terribly just to move. The pain never lets up. It hurts to run
and
play with my beloved little girl, and I find it hard to breath. I keep
trying my best to be the strong pup I know I am supposed to be, but it is
so
hard. It breaks my heart to see the little girl so sad, and to hear the
Mom
and Dad talk about "it might now be the time". Several times I have went
to
that veterinarians place, and the news is never good. Always talk about
Congenital Problems. I just want to feel the warm sunshine and run, and
play
and nuzzle with my family.
Last night was the worst, Pain has been my constant companion now, it
hurts
even to get up and get a drink. I try to get up but can only whine in pain.
I am taken in the car one last time. Everyone is so sad, and I don't know
why. Have I been bad? I try to be good and loving, what have I done
wrong?
Oh if only this pain would be gone! If only I could soothe the tears of the
little girl. I reach out my muzzle to lick her hand, but can only whine in
pain.
The veterinarians table is so cold. I am so frightened. The humans all hug
and love me, they cry into my soft fur. I can feel their love and sadness.
I manage to lick softly their hands. Even the vet doesn't seem so scary
today. he is gentle and I sense some kind of relief for my pain. The
little girl holds me softly and I thank her, for giving me all her love. I
feel a soft pinch in my foreleg. The pain is beginning to lift, I am
beginning to feel a peace descend upon me. I can now softly lick her hand.
My vision is becoming dreamlike now, and I see my Mother and my
brothers
and sisters, in a far off green place. They tell me there is no pain there,
only peace and happiness. I tell the family, good-bye in the only way I
know
how, a soft wag of my tail and a nuzzle of my nose. I had hoped to spend
many, many moons with them, but it was not meant to be. "You see," said
the
veterinarian, "Pet shop puppies do not come from ethical breeders."
The pain ends now, and I know it will be many years until I see my
beloved
family again. If only things could have been different.
(This story may be published or reprinted in the hopes that it will stop
unethical breeders and those who breed only for money and not for the
betterment of the breed. © 1999 J. Ellis)